2011. Where do I start?
My New Year's resolution for 2011 was to be happy. Needless to say, I didn't succeed. The beginning of the year started with so much promise as I had high hopes that this girl from my art class and I would hit things off. After several attempts of trying to hang out, I started to get the impression that she didn't want to start anything with me. A few weeks later she got a boyfriend. Lame. My birthday was less than exciting - instead of going out and partying like most 21-ers, I didn't do anything special. I can't remember what I did, but I think I hung out with Javier and didn't drink. I don't recall much of February-May, but I do know that one of my best friends stopped talking to me and completely cut me out of her life during this time for no apparent reason. The summer was pretty fun and I got to hang out with Javier and Cleo a lot. We went to the river a few times and I totally burnt my legs off, but it was worth it. I got my wisdom teeth out in August and it was one of the shittiest things ever. The last semester (August-December) blew by fast and nothing notable happened. I did start talking to this girl Josh dated a while back (which he said he didn't care about) in September, but of course she didn't like me. November and December featured a lot of Ice Cat games and bro hang time. I recently started talking to a girl that I've liked for years, and thought that it was going to flourish into something solid, but lately I'm not too sure she's interested (yet she tells me she "still likes me so much"?). That seems to happen way too much - a girl is attracted and I somehow repel them away. I feel like it's getting worse every year and it's really damaging my confidence, my happiness and my outlook on life. You would think that after years of rejection from girls and constant sketchiness from my friends that I would be used to being letdown, but I'm not. There's still a part of me that thinks that someone will notice the good in me and not turn me down. I'm not a bad person, and I treat girls extremely well, so I don't know what it is. I guess it's true - girls like assholes and nice guys finish last. I used to be an asshole, but I'm not really that same guy...guess I just need to accept my fate. In 2012, I hope to continue to grow as a person and as an artist, as well as surround myself with people that actually care about me and like being around me. I'm glad that my friendships with Clay, Josh, Javier, Eric and Tim have all grown, and I hope they continue next year. I'm also glad for all of the experiences this year and hope they will help me in the future. If anyone actually reads this, I hope you have a Happy New Year.
Notable movies from 2011 that I liked: The Mechanic, Drive Angry, Just Go With It, Limitless, Take Me Home Tonight, Bridesmaids, Everything Must Go, Hobo With A Shotgun, Crazy, Stupid, Love, Rise Of The Planet Of The Apes, Warrior, Killer Elite, Moneyball and Fast 5.
Notable albums from 2011 that I liked: Yelawolf - Radioactive, Childish Gambino - Camp, Apathy- Honkey Kong, Foo Fighters - Wasting Light, Bad Meets Evil - Hell: The Sequel, Kelly Clarkson - Stronger, Mac Lethal - North Korean BBQ
